SADNESS/HAPPINESS: SEXYLOSER

From Dirk (Sexyloser):

Is it just me or do some of you also always keep coming back to a certain song when you are in a specific mood? A song you really need to listen to, preferably immediately, preferably on your own, preferably at immense volume? A song you might connect with something that happened to you in the past, some form of experience you made, a certain situation? Something that meant to have rather a severe impact on your future life, either a good or a bad one?

I only wish I could come up with a brilliant story about why it is that I always had one song for each mood, for some 25 years now: one I need to listen to when I’m sad and one I need to listen to when I am happy.

It surely would make more sense if I could tell you that the ‘happy song’ was thundering away in the background when I had this threesome with those two Swedish models, both aged nineteen, or that the ‘sad song’ was on the radio in the moment I had that fatal car crash. Now, that would be something to remember, right?

Alas/luckily, there are no such stories, the two songs have always just been there, you know, but nevertheless I think I will never get tired to enjoy them as much as I do nowadays. Although the lyrics are not even that depressive/uplifting, I would think, I sometimes just need to rush home, get upstairs where the records are and put one of them on, depending in which mood I am. This doesn’t happen that often, but sometimes it does, on special occasions:


Phone calls from people informing you that another attempt of artificial insemination has failed, sorry, next time perhaps, don’t you worry/your apply for adoption has been approved, we’ll deliver a cute little boy to you next week, 5 months old, absolutely healthy, congratulations.

Or news about a friend you spent your youth with and who suddenly committed suicide, no, we don’t know why, he was always such a positive chap/farmer family in the neighborhood, not wealthy by any means, always struggling hard to do the best for their children, they won some agricultural lottery and will get a new tractor soon, worth 100.000 Euros.

More phone calls telling you about people you knew for ages, they will now divorce (the poor children)/get married (the poor children, once they get them).

The list is endless, I’m afraid, but who cares? That’s life and we can’t change it. The two songs though will always be there when I need them. And that’s good to know ….

For when I’m sad:
Artery – ‘The Death Of Peter X.’ (’83) [or, as you and I know it better: ‘Into The Garden’]

For when I’m happy:
Laurel Aitken – ‘Rudi Got Married’ (Peel Session Version) (’80)

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